i felt a little melancholy.
yesterday i am having fun really and i did everyday since that day.
but to be frank it was never the same.
missing and losing grip are never easy.
despite the fact that it was hard, i tried my best to do everything i could
including spending my spare time for myself and by myself these day
i am not trying to hide
but yes i am not ready with the consequences
i wanted to hold back for a second
although the feeling of frightened to lose something is still there

it has been slipping through my fingers for weeks maybe months maybe more than months
i don't know the reason until yesterday
i made a guess long time ago which are correct with some correction (pasti lah) : p
i am not hoping that i am still holding my grip of someone who do not know about keeping a
promise and communication
i am not hoping that "that someone" being one of the main suspect in this situation
it does hurt more when the fact flows through the air and slip to my ears

I am not telling anyone because i just want to write
my mind was too complex to be understood by others in words
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WHATEVER!